Well, it's been a few months since I last wrote so here's an update:
I haven't lost any more weight. I'm still around 174. I'm not happy about that but I know it's my own fault for not sticking with my diet as well as I should be. I feel somewhat bad about it but on the flip side, I've continued running and I joined Planet Fitness. I am now working out with the weight machines. I run a few times a week and go to the gym at least that much. I figure at this point I'm burning more calories and the 800-900 calorie/day goal that I had when I first started, let's say, my "wellness" goals, isn't going to be possible anymore. Actually, it hasn't been possible in months.
It's not that I'm not into this anymore, I absolutely am. I have had to adjust things because the PMS symptoms have become worse and holding back on eating bad food has become extremely hard. I know my body is changing and in general I feel good but I still need to lose more weight. I've decided that I'm upping my calories to 1100/day and my new goal is to be at 165 for my tummy tuck surgery on 2/4/19. That gives me a little over 5 weeks to lose 10 lbs which I think is doable. I'm still aiming for a goal weight of 145. My body seems to like the 170s but I'm not sure if that's laziness or not. I don't like it though and I will continue to work on this, however long it may take. I'm allowing myself to eat what I want for New Year's eve and when we go out for our birthdays but in general, I'm sticking with this new way of life pretty well. I need to always remember that it's been 8 months and since food is my go-to drug of choice, I have to be kind to myself about it which will always be a challenge. As long as I put good food into my body most of the time, I think I'm doing well. Years and years of junk and crap can't be forgotten. I don't want to continue eating like that or should I say, go back to that because I like who I am now and who I'm becoming. I love that I enjoy running again and that I started trail running. I love that I feel a little bad ass with my tattoos when I work out and I enjoy the weight machines at the gym.
My life is different now. I choose healthy eating and exercising before eating badly and being lazy (most of the time LOL!) and that's what's important. No one is perfect and I don't strive for that. What I am striving for is being the best version of me. The tummy tuck is going to help with the jiggly tummy and my happiness. I will be able to walk after and run 6 weeks after. I would like to do a trail race toward the end of 2019 too. We are going to New Orleans in April and I can't wait!
Exciting things are coming!
