Monday, October 14, 2013

Now What?

It’s been 22 days since I’ve run. As I said in my last couple of posts, life has gotten in the way. What’s interesting about this is that running should take precedence over not doing anything because I know it will make me feel better. I’m done with my cold so no excuse there. I’ve taken to eating for comfort since my mom died three weeks ago. Of course this isn’t good at all because no exercise + eating badly = feeling like crap. I know this but haven’t gotten myself out there yet. I need to learn to stop being so hard on myself. My emotions over the loss of my mom are always on the surface just waiting to spill out. Running would help this, I know that. It’s going to just be a matter of getting myself out there. Getting dressed, getting the shoes on, getting my headphones on, getting out there. I ran a lot when she was alive. Doing it now almost seems odd even though I did the half marathon three days after she passed. I was in such a fog that I don’t remember a lot of it.

Now what?

I need to run for me. I need to feel like a runner again instead of thinking about when I’m going to eat next. I know that’s sad but well, I’ve been through a lot the last few weeks and I figure it this way, it could be much, much worse. I’ll get out there when I’m ready. I really hope it will be soon though. I miss it.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

How It's Going

Well, it's going.

I caught a cold last weekend which isn't surprising after everything that's been going on in my life so that has kept me from running this week. Hopefully soon I'll kick this cold to the curb and get back to running. It's been over a week since my half and I miss getting out there.

I've decided I'd like my next half to be the Brooklyn Half in May 2014. So, I'll have to train and train hard because there is a 3-hour time limit and since my time was 3:15 a couple weeks ago, that won't cut it. I really want to walk less anyway so this will be a good goal.

I've had serious brain fog since my mom passed but this cold is adding more fog so work has been challenging this week. I miss her so much. My family and I have had to do so much in such a short amount of time like going through her entire house in 2 weekends because she was renting a house and we really didn't want to pay another month's rent. Well, it's done now. There's more to be done but I'm not going to get into all that now. Needless to say, it's been a rough 2 weeks and I need to get back into running soon to get my head cleared a bit.

I think I'm going to use one of Hal Higdon's training programs for my next half. I can't wait to start!